Though LM was long wanted and awaited...and we were prepared to take much more extensive measures to get him (thank you Clomid!)...it sometimes feels like adjusting to be a family of three is full of growing pains.
I don't know if I've mentioned it on here before, but I've been home since late February (bedrest) and don't go back to work until August (I'm a teacher!). I absolutely adore being home with LM...it's something that I know I'll never get to do again. I'm sure the timing with the next LO won't be as conducive. We have a good time at home---we play, snuggle, talk etc. The bonding is stronger than I thought. TH is a teacher too and while he was home with us for a few weeks, he's back to work now. I know how much he misses being able to be with him and see all of the little milestones. I try to keep him up to date with pictures and videos sent to him during the day. But--I know he feels like he's missing out. And..honestly...he is. But, I'm grateful that we could afford for me to be here with him and not having him in daycare yet.
Despite both TH and I being totally cognizant of this fact...the cracks are starting to show. I'm starting to resent how early he goes to bed at night..yeah, I'm tired too buddy. Try getting up in the middle of the night, rushing around getting stuff done around the house when LM takes his catnaps etc. I know you're going to work...but I'm not just sitting around on my a** here (okay, sometimes I do but when Grey's is on the DVR, I can't help it!). I haven't been out by myself for a "me thing" in over a month...and that was for a haircut and I came riiiiiight home. So when it's early in the morning and I'm exhausted and TH decides to cop an attitude with me about the fact that I don't want him to go out with co-workers tonight and how he didn't go out last week so I should feel guilty for not letting him....GRRR. I don't think he gets that even if he's awake for just a little bit when he's home...it's a break for me for him to hold/snuggle with LM and I like getting to see him. I don't think I'm asking all that much.
It feels like I'm being a mom all of the time and he still gets to be "just a husband" sometimes and do those things that we used to do when it was just the two of us. I know he loves me and adores LM...he's a great dad. But it's hard.
Does this get easier?