That's really the only word I have to describe this afternoon's upcoming appointment.
At 1pm est (US) time, we'll find out if we have a pumpkin seed growing....or if my instinct/nerves are right.
We'll find out if we'll be a family of 3 or 4.
I'm terrified the u/s will be glaring empty or small. Or worse....they'll be no heartbeat to hear.
Do I have a logical reason for any of this? No---it just feels different and I've been un-centered since seeing those two lines.
I'm just scared. And could use some happy thoughts and fairy dust.